I'm over the worst and looking at houses! Yeah!

I've processed a lot of my emotions, but still, every now and then, I flare up.

Now.... I'm looking at houses in the area I want to live in ! With a house I can do up and room for chooks. Wood fires, mountain viewsm what more do I want? (to sell all my stuff, settle house and magically teleport there tomorrow)

Have you ever been kicked out of your home?

And have no where to go?

Well I have, and it sucks.

Just as life got as hard as it could possibly be, i get kicked in the guts.

I'll get through it, maybe. But right now I'm hurting and I'm angry.

I have some big decisions to make and a lot of effort I need to find from somewhere to do what needs doing. Stuff I had no idea needed doing. I have to focus all my energy on a part of my life that can't be a priority right now.

I finally have working internet.

Big changes are coming for my blog, and for me.

I originally wanted this space to share all the weird and whacky things I get up to. A place to escape from my illness. After going through a lot lately, I've decided this isn't the place to talk about my feelings and frustrations over my illness anymore. This is my sanctuary, an extension of my creativeness and eccentricities.

Stand by for an update.

Thanks for your patience. My sister and i are doin ok.

Set Back for my sister

On wednesday morning my sister was acting oddly. Her hands were shaking and she had coordination issues. We were a little concerned, but not much. I decided to take her to the hospital, to see if they could find anything and she had a seizure just after she was called in for intial examination. No that she's had a second lot of seizures, everything is up in the air again. She was about to go back to work part time, but will get postponed now and was also looking to start driving again in march, not anymore. I have to be her semi-carer and taxi, which I don't mind doing, but it is extra pressure. With my mental illness, I almost need a carer myself, and I was on the borderline of coping already. The lastest developments have stretched and broken my reserves. On the upside, she didn't need to be intubated, and should be coming home soon, with still no clue as to what's going on. I also need a lot of time to myself and with her home all day moping it's difficult. Tempers and finances are running short!! Don't ya wish you could go back in time to a place where you now realise was much better than you knew then. It could  be much much worse, and I am so grateful she is ok-ish now. Stay well sissy.

11/365 The Secret Garden

The Secret Garden 1993

I liked this movie. It was a bit different to the book, but I don't think I've read the book. However my daughter has, and we watched it together as she pointed out all the differences and gave bits away. It explores lots of issues, I particularly like the issue with Colin, everyone telling him he's sick therefore he acts sick and is sick. So tragic. It also portrays how much impact parenting has on children, yet despite this they can over-come them.


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I love the magic, the innocence and of course the magnificent gardens. It's a classic, with many adaptions.  I haven't seen/read any other to compare. I recommend it. Good movie to watch with your kids.

IMDB The Secret Garden

10/365 Extreme Measures

Extreme Measure 1996.

Starring Hugh Grant and Sarah Jessica Parker before she got annoying. A doctor follows the trail of a man who mysteriously died his body disappears. It had a few twists I wasn't expecting. The movie held my interest despite some unrealistic moments. I actually really enjoyed it. Good medical/mystery. I do recommend but don't take it to seriously.

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9/365 Seven Samurai

Seven Samurai 1954

Love it, love it, love it. It is a long film....3.5 hours without ads. I can never watch it in one sitting I got things to do. I've watched it twice and I still have a little trouble figuring out who is who. But I love the setting and the character development. The interactions and the conflicts. It truly is epic. I don't even notice the black and white and the sub-titles.



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Kikuchiyo, is my favourite samurai, Cracks me up! Watch it! I recommend it. Get a good, remastered copy.

IMDB Seven Samurai